Nate

Prov 15:32 He that refuseth instruction despiseth his own soul: But he that heareth reproof getteth understanding. 33 The Fear of the Lord is the instruction of Wisdom; and before honor is Humility.

Prov 18:1 Through DESIRE a man, having separated himself, seeketh and intermedleth with all wisdom. 2 A fool hath no delight in understanding but that his heart may discover himself.

Moses, afraid to speak and to stand against Pharoah to lead the Israelites away from slavery was sent on a journey with Aaron to Egypt. In there departure from Egypt, God hardened Pharoah's heart many times preventing the Israelites from getting to the promised land, so they thought. The Israelites were very quickened to be burdened by their troubles because of a lack in faith and communication, not knowing their true God. They had doubts and fears and wanted to return to their bondage.

At the end of their journey before crossing the Jordan to enter the promised land Moses explained to the Israelites that his journey had been complete and he would no longer be with them. He instructed them not to serve Idols, graven images, animals, fish, etc. He explained that in the land that they will enter they will serve other God's that cannot eat, see, hear or smell. Moses said in Deuteronomy 4:29-31 29 But from there you will seek the Lord your God and you will find him if you seek him with all your Heart and all your Soul. 30 When you are in distress, and all the things come upon you in the latter days, when you turn to the Lord your God and obey his voice, 31(For the Lord your God is a Merciful God) he will not forsake you nor destroy you, nor forget the covenant he made with your father's which he swore to them.

I am an intellect that has struggled through many forms of bondage. Drug addictions, legal troubles, spiritual troubles, abuse, sexual abuse, mental health disorders, self affliction and mutilation, suicide attempts, relationship troubles. The list goes on.

One day I decided I had enough but unlike the Israelites I didn't have Moses to quicken me into believing the Truth so many times. To keep me from turning from my beliefs. I decided I had enough and with a bottle of water I took forty-eight one hundred milligram Trazedone sleeping pills and went into a deep sleep. Awaking from my slumber I noticed something different. Aside from being in a different place from where I went to sleep, I noticed that although I didn't have somebody to change my mind I had God directly tell me I am not done with you. I wasn't feeling sick, I wasn't tired but my legs were very stiff. I walked away that day holding on to tree branches so I could walk and learned a lesson in life. Wisdom.

In my addiction I told my grandmother after being refused money for heroin that I didn't believe in Jesus or the Spirit or in God and I was very disrespectful. Unlike the Israelites who kept their faith I did not because I served a foreign God and I denied my faith because I did not believe I could be saved. Just like apostle Paul. I did not believe I could be saved from my addiction, my God.

God showed me that he was there the entire time and I chose to pursue something that temporarily took my pain away only to make me hurt worse in the end. I suffered like the Israelites with a hardened heart because God punished me for denying him. He wanted to show me that in order to be saved I must come to him.

Just like the Israelites having to serve another God with the instruction to seek out the Lord their God with all their hearts, I awoke from my sleep to find that God allowed me another chance to seek out him.

In my life I have learned alot and can relate to many people. I have made many bad decisions and many good decisions. I have lived the worst life and have made it to become ordained with some college in advanced classes also obtaining a certificate through Ohio State University for food and nutrition.

I became an ordained minister to help others on their journey with guidance. I often have dreams about things that occur, I think about things before they happen and I know about divinity. I am learning about many forms of religion and consider anything sacred to your belief. My hope is for you to give your life to Jesus Christ and to receive the spirit.